An Uncertain Woman In An Unclear World.
Evelyn turns 18 today. She is sad. Sad that she is already 18 years old, and worried about how much time she has left. The 18 years of her life have gone so quickly, as will the rest, she thinks.
She is so worried about the future, how much time she has left, if she will accomplish her goals, that her life is passing by in front of her. After opening presents and blowing out birthday candles, she sits next to her best friend Johnathan. Johnathan gifts her a necklace with a forget-me-not flower pendant, there is chemistry. She thanks him for the present, her favourite present. There is a moment of silence. Evelyn takes this chance to talk about how life is so unimportant and quick that she doesn’t know how to spend each moment (occasionally she will trip on her words or stutter). Throughout this scene, in the background (never fully shown) is an old woman watching Evelyn. Johnathan asks if Evelyn wants to go on a date this weekend, but Evelyn declines as she needs to study.
Evelyn now attends University and sees Johnathan one day walking down the street. Johnathan suggests they catch up this weekend as they have not seen each other in a while. She declines, worrying about the work she has to do. She is saddened by this.
On one of her commutes, she stops to look at an abandoned building. It is forgotten and a waste of space. She hopes not to be this building. She hopes that she does not regret her decision to not meet up with Johnathan. Evelyn notices an old woman standing by the building (the old woman we have been seeing in the background of Evelyn’s life). She asks the elderly woman if she is alright. The woman does not respond but looks as if she is trying to say something. Evelyn looks at a necklace the woman is wearing, it is the same as the one Johnathan gave her for her 18th birthday; the forget-me-not. “I’m scared and confused,” she says to the old woman. It is her.
Elderly Evelyn takes young Evelyn to her house. It is small and broken. She is saddened that this is where she ends up. “We didn’t make it?” young Evelyn asks. Old Evelyn shakes her head but seems more worried about something else. Young Evelyn leaves in disappointment in elderly Evelyn and herself.
Later we receive news that Old Evelyn has died. Young Evelyn attends her older self’s funeral. She delivers a short, poetic and bleak eulogy.
Evelyn receives the news that she didn’t get the job as a writer and gets a tedious office job that she finds boring. She grows old. Johnathan is now married and has 3 children.
On her way to and from work every day, she starts seeing her younger self. She becomes mute and is now old Evelyn. She looks on in regret at her younger self worrying about her future rather than living in the present. One day she gets news that Johnathan has died.
She sees Young Evelyn talking with Johnathan, she cries seeing him; a person whom she never got to live her life with alive and well. She stands by the abandoned building, which she now is, watching Evelyn walk towards her. Old Evelyn wants to warn young Evelyn that she shouldn’t spend her life worrying about the future and live in the moment and live with Johnathan. But can’t due to being mute.
Old Evelyn then lives out the rest of her days in loneliness and repetitiveness until she dies, unfulfilled having lived a wasted life. Before she dies she looks at a photograph of Johnathan, the man she chose not to be with and the life she chose not to live. A life of happiness surrounded by the people she loves. She is forgotten.